and i just got word my mom and brothers are finally getting the hell out of japan. thank you sweet baby jesus. just got to wait a few days for the flight information. Family in Atlanta. oh yes. With the radiation lock down and the big aftershocks, my moms said she was done and was packing as we speak. I’m good, well I will be when they fly into town.
there’s a mix cd i made a few years ago for my great granny of her favorite songs, ones i remembered her playing while I was growing up. found my copy of it today. that was me starting my day off right. been in my own space today, alone but not lonely. the type of work I do its a hundred people around but I’ve perfected finding my silence. To the point where I’m tired of trying to prove myself, putting energy out and not getting it back and no effort. I tweeted something earlier about what my moms told me, twitter got the short version which may have seemed like woah but it was basically saying “get your money, see the world, fuck the rest”. I tend to try to focus on everyone but myself and let things past or go without anything to show for it. Not saying I don’t help or lend a hand, I’m to the point no where I need to do me and get my movement going. People who want to be around will and the others well they’ll fall wherever they chose. I do my best, but it gets me nowhere. So nowadays its about my siblings, Dave Canon and a handful group of friends. Guess going through some of those songs on my great granny’s cd reminded me of things I already knew, just reenforced them. Its been a long time coming and I got a ways to go. I cant make anyone care about my work or anything for that matter. Won’t make it a missing anymore either. It is what it is, dont really like that statement but it fits so fuck it. Feels like im rambling, so im stopping. Until next time.